i like to put my tongue in empty tooth sockets

hello!

i havent written here in awhile

i think it's because i have entered one of those "lazy" phases that i get

oh so often

you know, that phase in your life where you've just been really lazy to

do almost anything, from routinely cleaning your car, room, or bathroom

or doing any laundry

or any homework for that matter

well, i have been keeping up with homework, it's just

when i know i have to complete an assignment by a certain due date i just get

this feeling in me like i don't want to do it at all,

even though i have more than 6 hours to do it and it would be done with minimal effort

yet, i enjoy laying on my bed

waiting until the last minute to do things

@_@

i have just taken out all of my wisdom teeth (isssabouttime!)

i feel like an elderly person,

eating all of these liquidy and smooshy foods :[]

it seems like january and february really just flew by,

march is just at the doorstep

and speaking of march...

i will see you there?!!! :D

Can You Hear Me Now?

last week, i lost my voice for the first time

i developed symptoms of bronchitis,

then pneumonia

i always wondered why i woke up with a random fever

and then spitting out grey-green-yellow phlegm

ew

anyways, i made the stupid mistake of smoking cigarettes,

marijuana, even taking an ecstasy pill

on friday, my throat was so congested that when i tried swallowing

the pill with a large amount of water, the pill

got stuck in my throat

i was like... "WTF?! why wont it go down?!"

i later read that i should have refrained from drinking, ingesting, or

smoking anything that would dehydrate me

i did all 3

by the end of the night on friday, i couldn't laugh anymore

i could only say a few words until my voice turned into a whisper

this was very unfortunate for me the next day, since i worked

@ work on weekdays, i don't have to yell out names because

it is usually not that busy

but the day i worked was saturday, one of the busiest of them all

so imagine try yelling at the top of your lungs

trying to get peoples attention

throughout that night, with every word said

my throat hurt more and more

my voice disappeared more and more

i read that i should speak as less as possible,

to be a man of few words

but i did the exact opposite

after work i was so relieved,

but i had plans to see amandas friends dj at hypnotic

i thought, "tonight i cant be using my voice that much"

and, being around many close friends, that's hard to do

it was especially challenging too because of the environment (loud house music)

so to hear what i was saying youd have to put your ear to my lips

now losing my voice made me realize how

much i value the ability to speak and communicate with others

i always tend to talk and laugh by myself, but the last couple days

made it hurt to do so

when an enjoyable song would come on, id try to sing along but couldnt

laughing

one of my most favorite things in life

i could not do

i could not fully express myself

it made me feel so useless

but now, interestingly enough,

after smoking some weed, my

voice completely returned

it feels good to be back, i feel wholesome now

if there's one thing i learned:

cherish your voice