i think i'm finally starting to anticipate it now :D

different sizes
different shapes
different color
everyone's out for each other

they'll fuck with your mind
they need fuel for their purpose
they'll speak with mud splurting from their mouth

i'm sorry,
but there's just nothing here to fuck with







i knew
that after what we created with each other
it's always going to be true

there's just no one like you

now,
what was that shadow i saw moving
in my peripheral vision?

after what i heard last night
i pretty much now clarified it



there's a ghost living in my house.


there have been only 2 accounts of strange things happening


i remember the first one

it was about 4 years ago
i was home alone
i was just sitting on my computer playing computer games
like the nerd i am
and then all of a sudden i hear some knocks on the door to my room
and i just think,
"oh, my parents just got home, i just didn't notice"
cause i would usually notice if they get home since
the driveway is in plain view outside my window
so i get up off my chair (and remember, i didn't just hear things cause i wouldn't have reacted to it if i didn't hear anything, you know?)
and open my door
and all i see is an
empty
dark
hallway

i slammed the door and sat on my chair
and stared at the door
hearts pounding
"wtf was that?"
...............


the 2nd time
i was home alone again
and i was just going downstairs to get a drink
and right when i got down to the middle of the stairs
(and don't forget, i wouldn't have reacted this way if i knew i didn't hear anything)
i heard a girls voice (i'm not sure if it was a child's or older lady's) saying my name
like in a whisper voice
exactly like "vince."
right when i heard that
i stopped
my heart stopped
i ran upstairs
slammed the door
and sat on my chair
and this time, i was really tripped the FUCK out
i had to tell everyone on AIM
i had to call people
i had to hear someone
i had to talk to someone
was i losing it or did i just hear a girl call my name?

im glad it wasn't in an angry voice, it just sounded really subtle


now, just about 2 months ago
something appeared on the sliding door to my backyard
that i wish i never saw

a set of child's handprints have appeared
and i can tell it's a child's cause theyre 3x smaller than my own
and i can feel them, as if they were left from the inside of the house
i'm not joking, you can come to my house to see
i've shown it to some people and they just wanted to look away
my dad was like, "should we wash it off?"
my brother responds, "no, it will anger the spirits"
LOL
it sounds funny but i believe it will too

anyways

last night, at 4 am
i was laying on my bed about to fall asleep
and then all of a sudden
i hear someone walking outside my door into my brothers room
as if they were in a rush
and those footsteps sounded really heavy
and i got tripped out cause i could see that the lights were off
and my parents never go out into the hallway without turning the lights on

i know this could be a fluke, but ive heard these footsteps atleast 2 other nights in the past
and everytime i thought it was my mom

actually,
i can recall the first time i heard those footsteps

i was just sleeping,
and then i heard a lot of footsteps outside my door
and then even the sound of someone trying to turn the knob
but since my door was locked my door didnt open
i got tripped out so bad i called my mom
i said, "are you outside your room?"
mom: "no."
"i think there's someone in the house then."
mom: "no.. i think you just hear me in MY bathroom walking around"
"ok then...."
i just accepted that fact (cause i do hear footsteps through the wall of my room, since my parents room are on the other side) and went to bed, even though i know i heard the footsteps outside MY door




i want to find out your name, ghost
i want to find out what's your history
i want to know if you're friendly
i acknowledge your prescence



give me a sign

OMG



YES


it feels so nice right now here in vegas
today i felt something different
it wasn't just the obvious temperature change
no
it was the atmosphere as well
the sounds, the smells
it all seemed deliciously familiar

ah
yes!
fall is here
and its the awesomest season in vegas
cause its the season
that will bring the most awesomest feeling days that
this blistering desert can offer
you get those days where you feel like youre driving around california

the last time i felt something similar to today was...

well..

last fall of course O_o

hhahahaha

no,
but really
when i woke up this morning
when i took that first breathe of air
and tasted it with the tip of my tongue
it tasted like
all of my memories from around last fall and winter
it felt like i was living back at that time period for just that exhale
and it was just like



woah

i always get a kick out of it when shit like that happens


don't you? :D