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2010-07-22T15:50:00.000-07:00

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2010-06-30T20:55:00.000-07:00

http://www.latimes.com/news/custom/scimedemail/la-me-rave-20100629,0,6797442.story

Keep raves out of the Coliseum, doctors urge

"Drug overdoses and injuries send scores of teens and young adults to hospitals after the weekend's Electric Daisy Carnival.

A woman runs from a police officer as crowds rush a fence during the 14th annual Electric Daisy Carnival at the Los Angeles Memorial Coliseum. (John W. Adkisson / Los Angeles Times / June 25, 2010)

By Rong-Gong Lin II, Los Angeles Times

June 29, 2010

Several emergency room physicians called Monday for an end to raves at the Los Angeles Coliseum after a massive weekend event sent scores of teenagers and young adults to hospitals,mostly for drug intoxication.

At least two people — one of them a minor — were in the intensive care unit for drug intoxication at California Hospital Medical Center. Another minor was taken to Good Samaritan Hospital comatose; the minor had taken another attendee's water bottle and had drunk from it without realizing it had been laced with drugs.

Dr. Philip Fagan Jr., the medical director at Good Samaritan's emergency department, said the youth was unconscious for eight hours before waking up and recalling what had happened.
Raves, Fagan said, "should never be held any longer at the Coliseum."
Problems at the Electric Daisy Carnival, which attracted 185,000 party-goers, follow other recent high-profile incidents at similar events. At least 18 drug overdoses tied to Ecstasy were reported at a New Year's Eve rave at the Los Angeles Sports Arena — next to the Coliseum — and two men died of suspected drug overdoses during a Memorial Day weekend rave at the Cow Palace in Daly City, south of San Francisco.

Organizers of the Coliseum event touted it as the largest such party in North America. The rave, featuring five stages, was held at the stadium and in Exposition Park, just south of downtown Los Angeles. A publicist for Insomniac, the company that organized the rave, said Monday that founder Pasquale Rotella could not be reached for comment.

By the event's conclusion, about 120 people had been taken to hospitals by paramedics.

Cathy Chidester, director of the Los Angeles County Emergency Medical Systems agency, said officials treat raves at the Coliseum like a "multi-casualty incident," which she said was similar to planning for a disaster like the Chatsworth Metrolink train crash, which killed 25 and left more than 130 others injured.

Dr. Marc Futernick, medical director of emergency services at California Hospital Medical Center, called it "unconscionable" for a publicly owned facility like the Coliseum to host raves.

"I don't know why our elected … leaders would allow these activities to take place," Futernick said.

"This is basically a government-encouraged … drug fest. That's the wrong message," said Dr. Brian Johnston, emergency room medical director at White Memorial Medical Center. "It's putting people at risk, unnecessarily. It's putting people's health at risk."

Teens as young as 15 were taken to hospitals, Chidester said.

In recent years, Futernick said, he knows of at least five people who have died of drug overdoses at California Hospital after attending raves at the Coliseum.

Health officials say use of Ecstasy is widely associated with raves. Physicians said some teens and young adults mistakenly believe that Ecstasy is safe without realizing that it can cause organ failure and death.

In addition to drug-related problems, some of those taken to hospitals suffered trauma after people rushed gates to get inside without the required $75 ticket. On Saturday night, police made 63 arrests for possession and sale of narcotics, trespassing and drinking in public, among other violations.

The Coliseum, built on state land, is operated under the authority of a joint city, county and state commission. The Coliseum is independent financially and is expected to earn "well above six figures" from the weekend rave, making it at least twice as profitable as a USC game, said Pat Lynch, its general manager.

"Everything was done in an orderly fashion," Lynch said. "When you've got 185,000 people coming to anything, there's incidents."

"Are we happy that there's drugs? No. But on the other hand, we take every step we can to minimize it," said Lynch. "There's a reason 185,000 people were here. They're quality events. My kids came and had a ball."

A report on the effects of raves on the county's emergency medical system is expected to be made on July 21 at a meeting of the joint commission in Santa Fe Springs."

The ONLY real reason why people overdose is because they are careless, irresponsible, and just plain stupid. You can never die by ecstasy itself. A person dies because they are severely dehydrated and probably overheating -- which are common symptoms of dancing in a rave/club. If a person simply remembers to drink water, they can prevent anything serious from happening.

And here you see the media putting blame on the event holders or ecstasy itself, not putting any emphasis on the victim's mistakes at all. They didn't look down on the fact that they were careless and forgot to drank water or to sit down to cool down their heart rate. They just say that these events are "dangerous" and cause nothing but chaos and casualties. But the truth of the matter is, these kind of events bring large amount of revenue to the city and surrounding businesses. It brings more people into a city, increasing traffic flow in and out of vendors.

Look at me, I've been to a total of 5 raves ever since last year august, and i'm still alive. I didn't even come close to ending up in a hospital, not once. I take 2-3 pills at every event (during EDC i took 4 total, 2 each day). I stayed hydrated, sat down when needed, and had the time of my life every time.

Don't believe the propaganda they show you to put doubts into your head. As stated in the above article, with 185,000 people in one place, of course something's going to happen. But you don't see your city on fire or riots flooding the streets afterwards. It's all good vibes in a rave, and it's one of the only places I have ever seen where so many people come together with only one thing in their mind and heart: to have the best time of their life.

happy father's day, fathers

2010-06-20T15:11:00.000-07:00

today Obama made an interesting change in his 2010 fathers day proclamation:

"Nurturing families come in many forms, and children may be raised by a father and mother, a single father, two fathers, a step father, a grandfather, or caring guardian."

and this was someones response:

OBAMA THE BLACK ANTI-CHRIST is NOT CAPABLE of SPEAKING LIKE A FATHER BECAUSE HE LOVES TO PUT HIS HAND in THE HOMOSEXUALS PANTS TO FONDLE THEM EVERY HOUR of EVERY DAY. HE IS PERVERSE, and SATANIC in HIS BLACK EVIL HEART. 2012 CANNOT COME FAST ENOUGH TO PUT HIM on TRIAL for HIS CRIMES AGAINST AMERICA, and AGAINST NATURE, and AGAINST GOD. THE BIBLE CONDEMNS HIM to THE LAKE of FIRE, BECAUSE HE HAS CONDEMNED HIMSELF to BURN FOREVER as A PERVERSE HOMOSEXUAL LOVER.

all i can say is..

HAHAHAHAHA

Mount Kimbie

2010-06-19T13:47:00.000-07:00

its been awhile since ive posted

where has may and june gone you ask?

right here:

sometimes

2010-05-03T20:07:00.000-07:00

it's refreshing to look at the uglier side of life

Atheists

2010-04-28T20:37:00.000-07:00

:)(:

2010-04-27T09:34:00.000-07:00

school is almost over!

i got my first speeding ticket!

i'm really high right now!

i think it's happening again!

The Ugly Truth

2010-04-14T22:59:00.000-07:00

"Squares used to be the ones who followed all the new fashions and generally conformed to what everyone else was doing around them. You know, the sheep and robots among us; the spontaneous inauthentic people that we have spent so much time trying to understand. Now you tell me that this has switched to where being cool means dressing to impress your friends because your ego, your self-esteem is utterly dependent on what they think; that you can't stand on your own two feet and that the square is the person who dresses like a nerd because they could care less what everyone thinks? Now tell me, what are the implications, who is most free, and more importantly, most authentic? Isn't the new craze in tattoo's and body piercing simply a vulgar attempt to gain attention and recognition from other equally pathetic and shallow people who have no unique, original, or substantive way in which to infuse meaning into their empty, insignificant existence? It's so disappointing to see young people so deeply seduced by these fashion traps. I understand the feeling of alienation and their need to rebel against conformity and boredom and hopelessness, but they rebel by simply switching masters."

Fly Like an Apple

2010-03-31T23:03:00.000-07:00

i've been walking through

the hallways of time

and each day i come across

those faded pictures in my mind

we have now taken a sip
of each other's souls

i hope that we don't spit out
the very poison
that is carried throughout
our veins

BEYOND WONDERFACE

2010-03-24T21:25:00.000-07:00

yet again another awesome night in my life

every time i go to a rave it feels like i gain something out of it,

like another door in my life has been opened

if you still haven't gone to one in california,

YOU MUST.

you don't have to be all into "techno"

you don't have to have interest in the "scene"

you don't have to do any drugs

all you need to bring is that thirst for life and that need to dance

when you go to a rave you can act and dance however you'd like,

no one would judge

in the rave environment, everyone is friendly

everyone is caring

and no, its not because of the drugs

it's because everyone is there for the same reason you are: to enjoy life and feel connected with other people that have the same interests

thirsty? ask the person next to you for their water

100% they would let you drink some

need a cigarette? ask the person next to you

if someone has their head down and theyre by themselves against the wall

atleast 5 people will approach him and ask

"hey man are you okay?"

"hey do you need any water?"

a person that you have never met would be willing to spend money for you

but go to a rock concert, someone will be throwing up

no one would give a fuck

step on someones shoe

youd get a dirty look shot straight back at you

i can recall confronting this guy because we were trying to cross paths

he happily took 1 step back and said with a smile,

"go ahead"

i can say that i have not found this immense amount of kindness anywhere else

but a rave

when everyone has that sort of connection, an aura arises from the atmosphere that

envelops the rave

it's not all about getting as fucked up as you can to crazy music

it's about feeling human, and being human

in a rave you are not restricted by society

(except the obvious: no going around and killing people, etc.)

you're not told by anyone to stop what you're doing,

you're free to roam around and create chaos

yes, a rave represents utmost chaos,

but it is orderly chaos

the cops and security guards watch from the sidelines,

but they won't do anything to stop you from living

it almost feels illegal that such things can exist and happen on this world

bright blinding lights, pulsing ear-bleeding music, people on drugs by the thousands

and yet the police watch from the sidelines

going through just one rave will change your life,

i guarantee it

sure, you may have fun in your life

partying, drinking till your stomach falls out

but a massive rave is a different kind of party

it's an experience that you need to go through in order to

fully understand what i'm trying to say

EDC (http://www.electricdaisycarnival.com/) is coming this june

and i'm determined to bring a large chunk of vegas over there :)

anyways

check out these beyond wonderland videos:

what does it mean?

2010-03-18T12:58:00.000-07:00

when whenever i fall asleep, i will enter into a very

surreal, vivid dream, EVERYTIME i fall asleep.

i'm talking about dreaming for 8 hours on end, and then waking up

(cause of alarm or something)

and then falling back asleep, only to find yourself in the same

or different, crazy dream

every night

can someone tell me?

last night i had one of the worst nightmares

it started off really awesome, and then it completely changed

into some sick shit

i was going to coachella with a bunch of friends,

and then when we arrived there,

for some reason i got transported back to my old house in california

then there was a party there with people i have never seen before

while everyone was having fun, all of a sudden

people started turning into zombie-like vampire things... and started killing everyone

(they had fangs, moved as fast the zombies from 28 days later)

almost my whole family was there and got massacred

(my mom and uncle left to go get something)

there were bodies everywhere, there were constant scenarios

of me hiding in different rooms

hiding under the bed and in the bathroom

i can recall having a "scissor war" with one of the crazies

i had a giant pair of scissors, and so did he

(jmagine epic sword fights but with scissors LOL)

i basically subdued him and snipped his head off his body

the snipping felt so real, as if i could feel the amount of force required to cut that person's head off

then, as i saw one of my last friends to die,

i was the only survivor and ran out through the backdoor

into the front of the house. there i saw one of the crazy things running around so

i just layed on the floor and acted dead

for some reason he just walked over my body, and as he walked over i could hear

him speaking spanish to the other crazy right next to him (LOL?)

then i saw my uncle and my mom walking right behind them approaching the house

i urged them to not go in

i was hyper ventilating, panicked, and traumatized in my own dream

they called 911 and they were saying how i would need to go

to counseling because of all the stuff i went through

and for some reason, i DIDNT go to the hospital and me and

my mom and uncle proceeded to walk down the neighborhood and attempted to enter other people's houses

we came upon this creepy looking house and i told them, "NOO THEYRE IN THERE! LOOK THE FRONT DOOR IS EVEN OPEN!"

but they still wanted to go in. we entered to find 6 SWAT members shooting those crazies with mp5s

and then some more of them came behind us and tore my uncle and mom apart

i grabbed a sniper rifle that was conveniently placed by my foot and proceeded to shoot the faces of my zombievampirefied family members

my last memory of the dream was looking through the scope (i knew how to use the gun, scope and reload, for some reason)

and saw this crazy with a sniper rifle and listening to his ipod

i shot

i missed

i looked through the scope again

i see a giant truck running him over from behind

to make sure he was dead, i aimed at his face

which for some reason turned into a giant sized ipod (that covered his whole face)

i shot and a blood stain appeared on the ipod screen

and that was my last memory of the dream before my mom called my cellphone,

waking me up

thank you, mom

i like to put my tongue in empty tooth sockets

2010-02-25T12:54:00.000-08:00

hello!

i havent written here in awhile

i think it's because i have entered one of those "lazy" phases that i get

oh so often

you know, that phase in your life where you've just been really lazy to

do almost anything, from routinely cleaning your car, room, or bathroom

or doing any laundry

or any homework for that matter

well, i have been keeping up with homework, it's just

when i know i have to complete an assignment by a certain due date i just get

this feeling in me like i don't want to do it at all,

even though i have more than 6 hours to do it and it would be done with minimal effort

yet, i enjoy laying on my bed

waiting until the last minute to do things

@_@

i have just taken out all of my wisdom teeth (isssabouttime!)

i feel like an elderly person,

eating all of these liquidy and smooshy foods :[]

it seems like january and february really just flew by,

march is just at the doorstep

and speaking of march...

i will see you there?!!! :D

Can You Hear Me Now?

2010-02-08T13:18:00.000-08:00

last week, i lost my voice for the first time

i developed symptoms of bronchitis,

then pneumonia

i always wondered why i woke up with a random fever

and then spitting out grey-green-yellow phlegm

anyways, i made the stupid mistake of smoking cigarettes,

marijuana, even taking an ecstasy pill

on friday, my throat was so congested that when i tried swallowing

the pill with a large amount of water, the pill

got stuck in my throat

i was like... "WTF?! why wont it go down?!"

i later read that i should have refrained from drinking, ingesting, or

smoking anything that would dehydrate me

i did all 3

by the end of the night on friday, i couldn't laugh anymore

i could only say a few words until my voice turned into a whisper

this was very unfortunate for me the next day, since i worked

@ work on weekdays, i don't have to yell out names because

it is usually not that busy

but the day i worked was saturday, one of the busiest of them all

so imagine try yelling at the top of your lungs

trying to get peoples attention

throughout that night, with every word said

my throat hurt more and more

my voice disappeared more and more

i read that i should speak as less as possible,

to be a man of few words

but i did the exact opposite

after work i was so relieved,

but i had plans to see amandas friends dj at hypnotic

i thought, "tonight i cant be using my voice that much"

and, being around many close friends, that's hard to do

it was especially challenging too because of the environment (loud house music)

so to hear what i was saying youd have to put your ear to my lips

now losing my voice made me realize how

much i value the ability to speak and communicate with others

i always tend to talk and laugh by myself, but the last couple days

made it hurt to do so

when an enjoyable song would come on, id try to sing along but couldnt

laughing

one of my most favorite things in life

i could not do

i could not fully express myself

it made me feel so useless

but now, interestingly enough,

after smoking some weed, my

voice completely returned

it feels good to be back, i feel wholesome now

if there's one thing i learned:

cherish your voice

Moral Orel

2010-01-28T14:46:00.000-08:00

This is why I love Moral Orel so much:

Clay Puppington: Tell me, DOC, did some of those painkillers protect her against you?

QXP: ...what does that mean?

Clay Puppington: You know, the pain. Of you. Day in, day out, of BEING there, with that FACE... not knowing what to say..not caring anymore. Not even knowing you'll only start caring for her when it's already too late. Forgetting about all those desperate.. those desperate years YOU spent alone, your barren years, when no woman would even consider resting their tired little head on your shaky little shoulder... and stinking of belly semen. Why even wipe? And then when you finally get one of THESE (points to woman), covered in pieces of tail that have been built up as the GRAND TROPHY in your nothing life, you try desperately to KEEP it, not to protect it, but to HOARD it.. to keep it away from the other WOLVES and JACKALS circling your territory.... and you realize....... all too soon..........that YOU'RE not good enough... and that maybe there was a jerk-off called Darwin after all... and that you never acknowledged his existence because you knew deep inside that you were really what you feared you were: WEAK, PASSIVE, and ultimately BROKEN by the ones who remain the fittest... and that through your weaknesses you developed a POISON... that POISONS others around you....... that you love..... and the only TRUE justice...was to let those dominant jackals FEED off of you..... SURVIVE off of you.....

O_O

Mountain Goats - No Children

2010-01-21T18:15:00.001-08:00

I hope that our few remaining friends
Give up on trying to save us
I hope we come out with a fail-safe plot
To piss off the dumb few that forgave us

I hope the fences we mended
Fall down beneath their own weight
And I hope we hang on past the last exit
I hope it's already too late

And I hope the junkyard a few blocks from here
Someday burns down
And I hope the rising black smoke carries me far away
And I never come back to this town again in my life

I hope I lie
And tell everyone you were a good wife
And I hope you die
I hope we both die

I hope I cut myself shaving tomorrow
I hope it bleeds all day long
Our friends say it's darkest before the sun rises
We're pretty sure they're all wrong

I hope it stays dark forever
I hope the worst isn't over
And I hope you blink before I do
And I hope I never get sober

And I hope when you think of me years down the line
You can't find one good thing to say
And I'd hope that if I found the strength to walk out
You'd stay the hell out of my way

I am drowning
There is no sign of land
You are coming down with me
Hand in unlovable hand

And I hope you die
I hope we both die

iuiu

2010-01-19T10:44:00.000-08:00

will not control me

will not break me

will not give in

will not be broken

only want to control

only want to break

only want to live naturally

only want to naturally live

it's so hard to run into

anything real in this world

which is why i still find myself

reminiscing of those precious memories

that i hold onto me wherever i go

sometimes it comes to the

point where i feel like i just

want to feel that safety net

i just want to feel your warmth

but then my mind will

linger off onto something else

and i begin to live again

Japanese People Are Crazy

2010-01-13T02:10:00.000-08:00

crazy funny

but also very crazy

We all know from watching ninja warrior

and those japanese prank videos,

but just how crazy can japanese people get?

Watch the following vids to find out:

in the next video, wait till 3:15 and youll just LOL

LOL

i've made a decision

sometime in the future

im going to live in japan for a month or so

everything about that place fascinates me

i would like to just walk through the japanese wilderness

rural and urban

i'm taking jap this semester

since UNLV requires i take 2 classes of the same language,

i chose japanese as my language

since ive already done 2 years of japanese in high school

(2 years of JAP I to be exact LOL)

so i thought it wouldn't give me a hard time

but this time, i'm going to take the time to study and learn

cause back in highschool...

that was a different story hahah

i don't know about you guys, but last semester took

a shit on my forehead

i really need to wake up

and go into seriousmode

>:O

insomnia seems to be more evident

during recent years

we are all victims

yes you

and i am one

i really need to fix my sleeping schedule

normal bedtime?

5:00am-6:00am

next week,

on tuesday

my class starts at 8:00am

u_u

HELLO 20010!

2010-01-07T22:25:00.000-08:00

oh man, whenever i type or write 2010,

i'm always about to write 20010

cause for 9 years now there's been 2 0's in the date

Hard NYE fucked me straight in the face

and tossed it aside like it was nobody's business

i know that all sounds like a bad thing,

but it's just how i felt after i left the palladium

that's what my body felt after hours and hours of dancing

and just pure crazyness

destructo, dj mehdi, a trak, and boys noize

they all killed it

even though the venue was small, the music was fucking amazing

i could say it was the best ending and beginning of a new year :]

here are some vids:

i plan to save up to finally buy my own camera

it's been way too long without taking any pictures

i almost feel deprived

actually...i do feel deprived u_u

anyways

i have a very good feeling about this year

i don't know what it is but i just have that feeling

let's hope i'm not wrong :]

2009-12-31T02:44:00.000-08:00

10-

2009-12-28T01:04:00.001-08:00

last night i ate a "shroomtella sandwhich"

LOL

i basically had nothing to eat the shrooms with,

so i used a piece of whole grain bread and put

yes, you guessed it

nutella on it and sprinkled the shrooms on top

i must say it masked the taste very effectively

30 minutes in, my whole body felt tingly

as i was choosing a song to listen to,

i noticed the letters on the screen to start swirling around

"OK. i think im tripping now"

that's when i started to lose my grip on reality

and you don't even notice it at the same time

you know you're tripping when just being on the youtube

site itself trips you out

chung: "YOUTUBE NEVER LOOKED SO CRAZY"

let me tell you,

watching that movie Baraka on shrooms just made

that movie 500x more crazier than it already is

and you see, the thing

with shrooms is that you can't tell if that's what the movie really looks like

or if your vision is just fucking with you

my room never looked so different

it also never felt so evil

the sailboats on my walls looked more pointy than they already were

and i saw the sails moving

the way the pattern of ships goes along my walls made it almost look like fire

this song that you're listening to right now was

actually one of the songs i played during my trip

once we heard the guy talking,

EVERYONE busted out laughing

and i can recall richie saying,

"what the fuck are we listening to?"

LOL

all of my drawings came to life

they were all moving and swirling around, like that's

what the whole purpose of the drawing really was:

to be animated

not to be just simple drawings on the wall

seeing all of this, it just makes me wonder

how does the human mind conjure up images like this?

is this the other world that we do not see?

why did i see it with my own eyes if it's not there?

throughout the whole night my mind was generally in

a state of confusion

my mind was racing with thoughts

faster than i could actually comprehend

it would jump into thinking about when my parents are coming back

to "wait when did they leave?"

to "wait what day is today?"

to "wait wtf... days of the week are crazy."

to "should i ask my brother?"

to "holy shit i have a brother"

to "holy shit my parents are coming back tomorrow"

and as i would keep thinking and thinking

my mind would go to and from reality

as i would think about things that had to do with the real world

i would feel like i'm normal again

and then when i would walk back into my room and stare at one of the most fucking

trippy movies i've ever seen, A Waking Life, i would feel crazy in the head again

here's a clip so you can see why it tripped me out way too hard:

it's actually a really good philosophical movie about life

i'll have to watch it again sober

but the movie looks so trippy that itll make you feel like youre on something

when you're watching it

occasionally i would go downstairs to visit and talk with some people (who were completely sober)

i was actually able to hold a normal conversation with them

and me being able to conversate with them made me forget

i was even shrooming

and one of the random guys that were downstairs came upstairs

to show me this video

cause he knew i was shrooming

and omg.

i almost wanted to look away cause it just looked

TOO CRAZY:

watch 1:15-3:00

i remember taking a step outside to have a cigarette

and looking up at the clouds

the clouds never looked so detailed

it's like they didn't have a fluffy edge around them

it almost seemed solid and smooth

one of the most random funny moments was when

i was standing in front of my parents room with

jacky and chung

and we were just literally

standing there

looking around in confusion

and finally chung goes

"are we really just standing in front of your parents room?"

LOL

there were many obstacles to overcome during my trip

like figuring out the thermostat

me and chung literally stood in front of it for 5 minutes

trying to figure out

"WHATS HOT?

is 90 DEGREES HOT?"

note to self: a thermostat is highly inoperable

when shrooming

alas, near the end of my trip, mark put on one of my favorite music videos

again, it was 5004% times more amplified when i was tripping

so it just looked too beautiful

even if you're sober right now, it will still blow your mind away

after watching it you just enter this moment of silence and you're just like

"whoa."

Birdy Nam Nam - The Parachute Ending

i had A LOT of laughs that night

and had a great trip

i definitely did not feel as many strange emotions

as i did my last trip

this was more of a "having fun" trip

but i did gain some insight from it

after every trip it seems like i just walked through

the many untouched doors of life

anyways i hope everyone had a good christmas

mine was pretty chill

just ate a lot of food and ended it with a cup of merlot

i got some useful clothing and funds for hard NYE

which is in 3 days

YES!

2009-12-22T22:56:00.000-08:00

i can't believe it's 3 days until christmas

i'm sure all of you have noticed... it seems like the holidays have lost

their spark haven't they

when we were kids we would always look forward to halloween or christmas

we would look forward to trick or treating or waking up early to open presents

now its like the only thing we look forward to are our days off or when we get paid

i still wished we felt the same about the holidays

well i'm sure there are people out there who do

but i know i certainly don't

i mean, i want to feel excited

i try to enjoy seeing all the decorations and lights and listening to christmas music

and whatnot

but when the day actually comes it's like cool for awhile, you do notice it feels different than any other day

but then halfway through the day it just feels like a normal day again

well.. today i was thinking

concerning the fact that were older now is why were not so excited for the holidays

how do older people feel?

like our parents

it seems they actually do have more spirit in them (my mom atleast) at their age

could it be that.. as we get older we eventually get that magic back?

just because that were aware of the fact that we've been on this planet for such a long time that

we just want to cherish those special days of the year

so that we still feel alive

i dont know @_@

anyways

i'm going to spend this christmas by myself this year

my whole family is going to be in cali

but that's okay

cause on new years i'm going go to......

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! :D

2009-12-14T23:18:00.000-08:00

500 days of summer

2009-12-12T16:45:00.001-08:00

"i hate you"

2009-12-05T18:59:00.000-08:00

last night,

i finally got a bad case of sleep paralysis.

for those of you who haven't heard of sleep paralysis,

"Physiologically, sleep paralysis is closely related to the paralysis that occurs as a natural part of REM (rapid eye movement) sleep, which is known as REM atonia. Sleep paralysis occurs when the brain awakes from a REM state, but the body paralysis persists. This leaves the person fully conscious, but unable to move. The paralysis can last from several seconds to several minutes "after which the individual may experience panic symptoms and the realization that the distorted perceptions were false.

The paralysis state may be accompanied by terrifying hallucinations (hypnopompic or hypnagogic) and an acute sense of danger.Sleep paralysis is particularly frightening to the individual because of the vividness of such hallucinations. The hallucinatory element to sleep paralysis makes it even more likely that someone will interpret the experience as a dream, since completely fanciful, or dream-like, objects may appear in the room alongside one's normal vision. Some scientists have proposed this condition as an explanation for alien abductions and ghostly encounters."

i felt awake,

i was fully aware of all my senses except sight

and it all started with something tapping on my back

like it was trying to get my attention

and, knowing that nothing should be in my room while i sleep, i started to panic

i could feel the tapping, yet i could not move or react

i felt like i was dreaming, yet i felt like i was awake

and since i felt this physical touch on me, i couldn't do anything but start to scream and yell

it lasted about 10 seconds

when i woke up, i immediately turned to my left (cause you know, since i was half aware that someone/something was touching me, i wanted to see what it was)

and there was nothing

i scanned around my room and just sat there on my bed, still shaken from the experience

"The paralysis can last from several seconds to several minutes "after which the individual may experience panic symptoms and the realization that the distorted perceptions were false"

this is from the scientific definition of sleep paralysis, but many believe that we really do see/feel

paranormal activities

i have heard many stories from various friends:

"my mother told me of a night she had sleep paralysis. she was laying in her bed on her side and could not move, but could look around. she saw a dark figure standing at the door. she wanted to scream but she could not talk or move. another time was when she was sleeping on her back, and she was half-asleep when she saw a demonic figure sitting on top of her. it began to choke her. she could feel the hands around her throat. she could only watch in terror, for her body couldnt move again. she then was able to say one thing: "jesus, help me." after that, the demonic figure dissipated and her nightmarish experience was over."

it is noted that one of the causes of sleep paralysis is sleeping with your face upwards (sleeping on your back):

The Nightmare, by Henry Fuseli (1781) is thought to be one of the classic depictions of sleep paralysis perceived as a demonic visitation.

But, as in mine and the below case, it can also occur while you sleep on your side:

"i was sleeping on my side when i noticed i could not move. i felt an uncomfortable presence inside my room, like it was looking right at me. something then grabbed my arm and flung it across the bed. i regained full consciousness after that and was terribly disturbed."

"Some reports read that various factors increase the likelihood of both paralysis and hallucinations. These include:

Irregular sleeping schedules; naps, sleeping in, sleep deprivation
Increased stress
Sudden environmental/lifestyle changes
A lucid dream that immediately precedes the episode."

now i wonder....

was it that ghost that lives in my house the one that wanted to get my attention?

.....goddamnit,

cant you see im trying to sleep

2009-11-22T01:35:00.000-08:00

Beach House - Norway

We were sleeping till
You came along
With your diamond heart
You let us in the wooden house
To share in all the wealth

Don't you know it's true?
Norway-ay-ay-ay, ay-ay-ay-ay-ay-ay

Seven figures leap the hungry maws
The beastie comes to you
He's a hunter for a lonely heart
In the season of the sun

Don't you know it's true?
Norway-ay-ay-ay, ay-ay-ay-ay-ay-ay

Where you thinkin' that you gotta run to now
With the beating of a diamond heart?
Hang on to the things that you're supposed to say
Billions of stars that open to your fate

Norway-ay-ay-ay, Norway-ay-ay-ay...

2009-11-10T22:05:00.000-08:00

it's interesting how people will walk into their job everyday
and will do anything and everything so that they can just get on with their day
and in doing so they form relationships with other employees
and they'll form some kind of "work" relationship with them

that kind of relationship where you'll pass em while walking around
and will always say that one common greeting,
"hey, how are you?"
"i'm fine, how about you?"
"i'm doing good thanks."

and that's it
for the rest of the shift
you might do this with 20+ people
depending on where you work and how much you like your job

there are of course actual friendships that are made in the workplace
but other than that, it almost just seems like a world of saying
hi's and bye's
they pretend to be someone's friend, but their workplace
is probably the only place that they see each other
so it doesn't matter right?

i find it unusually disturbing sometimes when i think about this while im working
but then i accept it and meld in with the system
humans will do whatever it takes to gain personal satisfaction,
whether it be doing someone a favor or shooting an AK-47 at a crowd of civilians
so in the workplace it's also the same
it may appear that your boss cares about you,
but really they could give a flying fuck about who you are, what you do
they just want you to do your job
cause that's their job
an employee will form a bond with their manager,
but either one of them could disappear from the face of the planet
and either one of them wouldn't be all that phased (again, this is assuming that they have a mediocre relationship)
cause after all,
they never had childhood memories with each other,
they never had any "ohh man remember that one time" moments with each other

that's why it's okay to not say bye to some people when you get off work
it's not like they'll come up to you and say,
"hey, you didn't say bye to me"
no
it's because they know exactly what im talking about
they know you're just trying to get on with life
i mean, i'm not saying that it's okay to always not say bye to anyone when you get off work
i will say hi to anyone i come across when i first walk into work,
but when i leave, i say bye to everyone at the front desk (since that's where i work at) and to anyone else i pass by
but i won't go out of my way to say bye to everyone that i said hi to
cause honestly
i just want to get out of there ASAP
all you workers know this to
your shift just ended
you're fuckin tired as balls
and you can't wait to get home to smoke a bowl (that atleast applies to me, lol :P)

like i said before, it's clearly evident in most workplaces that
employees actually do form real relationships with each other
and they do form solid memories with each other
and they do actually hang out with each other outside of work

ah

the relationships that human beings have with each other
just never cease to intrigue me

2009-11-08T18:31:00.000-08:00

you know what grinds my gears?
how slutty the new generation of kids look nowadays

i mean..

10, 11, 12 year olds in booty shorts

why?

well... i'm not surprised
what they put on the disney channel nowadays is just trash to me
hannah montana and selena gomez are growing up, which means they're going
to even be more sluttier than they already are
and so the girls will follow in their footsteps

not only that, it has been noted through some research that
the hormones in the typical female body are evolving faster than how
they did back in the day
i'm sure you've all noticed it
girls are being fully developed by 14 and 15

ridiculous

i ain't no saint but
world, i wish you could clean yourself up

2009-11-03T23:59:00.000-08:00

oh god, when i woke up this morning
i felt extremely exhausted
but it was that good kind of exhausted

last weekend was amazing in many ways
it was the vacation i've needed
a couple days in another city with some good friends
is all you need for a good vacation
(and some trees ;)

hard haunted surely tore my face to shreds
and i enjoyed every minute there
and this time it didn't get broken up
so i got to bask in 10 hours of ass-fucking beats

you can never really fully enjoy an artists music unless you see them live
and i just think it's awesome how they remix most of their songs
when they go on stage

i remember
when we first arrived at mark's house @ 4 am
we went up to the lookout on the beach
and it was funny because i remember asking mark
"so what's the name of this beach? cause people always ask me and
i can never tell them... cause i never really found out the name"
mark replies
"they call it moonlight beach"
and right when he said that we came to the view of the ocean
and the moon was kind of close to the horizon
so there was a bright reflection on the waves
and it just made all of us say
"whoa."
hahahaha
"now i see how it got its nickname"
mark: "actually, that's the real name of the beach"
interesting indeed

it will be a long time until i go to the next rave
:(

but until next time....

check out kris with his yoshi costume @ hardhaunted:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CVGFFbGu0A4
scroll to 2:30-2:35

HAHAHAH

also
check out these guys who were the closing act of hard
they just straight up blew my mind with their constant beats
and kept my roll going until the end of the rave @ 4:00am

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tt7Kf8K4sos

and lastly, one of their music videos that's very interesting:

Modeselektor - Black Block
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g0vpWsNqNpE

2009-10-26T14:29:00.000-07:00

i think i'm finally starting to anticipate it now :D

2009-10-22T19:23:00.000-07:00

different sizes
different shapes
different color
everyone's out for each other

they'll fuck with your mind
they need fuel for their purpose
they'll speak with mud splurting from their mouth

i'm sorry,
but there's just nothing here to fuck with

i knew
that after what we created with each other
it's always going to be true

there's just no one like you

2009-10-16T11:57:00.000-07:00

now,
what was that shadow i saw moving
in my peripheral vision?

2009-10-09T21:28:00.000-07:00

after what i heard last night
i pretty much now clarified it

there's a ghost living in my house.

there have been only 2 accounts of strange things happening

i remember the first one

it was about 4 years ago
i was home alone
i was just sitting on my computer playing computer games
like the nerd i am
and then all of a sudden i hear some knocks on the door to my room
and i just think,
"oh, my parents just got home, i just didn't notice"
cause i would usually notice if they get home since
the driveway is in plain view outside my window
so i get up off my chair (and remember, i didn't just hear things cause i wouldn't have reacted to it if i didn't hear anything, you know?)
and open my door
and all i see is an
empty
dark
hallway

i slammed the door and sat on my chair
and stared at the door
hearts pounding
"wtf was that?"
...............

the 2nd time
i was home alone again
and i was just going downstairs to get a drink
and right when i got down to the middle of the stairs
(and don't forget, i wouldn't have reacted this way if i knew i didn't hear anything)
i heard a girls voice (i'm not sure if it was a child's or older lady's) saying my name
like in a whisper voice
exactly like "vince."
right when i heard that
i stopped
my heart stopped
i ran upstairs
slammed the door
and sat on my chair
and this time, i was really tripped the FUCK out
i had to tell everyone on AIM
i had to call people
i had to hear someone
i had to talk to someone
was i losing it or did i just hear a girl call my name?

im glad it wasn't in an angry voice, it just sounded really subtle

now, just about 2 months ago
something appeared on the sliding door to my backyard
that i wish i never saw

a set of child's handprints have appeared
and i can tell it's a child's cause theyre 3x smaller than my own
and i can feel them, as if they were left from the inside of the house
i'm not joking, you can come to my house to see
i've shown it to some people and they just wanted to look away
my dad was like, "should we wash it off?"
my brother responds, "no, it will anger the spirits"
LOL
it sounds funny but i believe it will too

anyways

last night, at 4 am
i was laying on my bed about to fall asleep
and then all of a sudden
i hear someone walking outside my door into my brothers room
as if they were in a rush
and those footsteps sounded really heavy
and i got tripped out cause i could see that the lights were off
and my parents never go out into the hallway without turning the lights on

i know this could be a fluke, but ive heard these footsteps atleast 2 other nights in the past
and everytime i thought it was my mom

actually,
i can recall the first time i heard those footsteps

i was just sleeping,
and then i heard a lot of footsteps outside my door
and then even the sound of someone trying to turn the knob
but since my door was locked my door didnt open
i got tripped out so bad i called my mom
i said, "are you outside your room?"
mom: "no."
"i think there's someone in the house then."
mom: "no.. i think you just hear me in MY bathroom walking around"
"ok then...."
i just accepted that fact (cause i do hear footsteps through the wall of my room, since my parents room are on the other side) and went to bed, even though i know i heard the footsteps outside MY door

i want to find out your name, ghost
i want to find out what's your history
i want to know if you're friendly
i acknowledge your prescence

give me a sign

2009-10-01T02:40:00.000-07:00

OMG

YES

it feels so nice right now here in vegas
today i felt something different
it wasn't just the obvious temperature change
no
it was the atmosphere as well
the sounds, the smells
it all seemed deliciously familiar

ah
yes!
fall is here
and its the awesomest season in vegas
cause its the season
that will bring the most awesomest feeling days that
this blistering desert can offer
you get those days where you feel like youre driving around california

the last time i felt something similar to today was...

well..

last fall of course O_o

hhahahaha

no,
but really
when i woke up this morning
when i took that first breathe of air
and tasted it with the tip of my tongue
it tasted like
all of my memories from around last fall and winter
it felt like i was living back at that time period for just that exhale
and it was just like

woah

i always get a kick out of it when shit like that happens

don't you? :D

2009-09-17T15:35:00.000-07:00

he's crazy

she's crazy

they're crazy

you're crazy

i'm crazy

the whole world is crazy

and once we've become used to it

nothing seems real

2009-09-13T16:13:00.000-07:00

note to self:

never take ecstasy the night before work in the morning X_X

2009-09-07T12:23:00.001-07:00

we all want to be different
we all want to feel different
we all want to see something different
we all want to hear something different
but us humans don't like change

2009-09-04T02:07:00.001-07:00

starting from 8:30pm until 1:30am,
i have consumned/ingested:

one serving of bacon, chicken, and broccoli mac and cheese
slice of vanilla bean cheesecake
can of coca cola
2 crackers topped with homemade tuna and famous dave's sweet and spicy pickles
2 bags of welch's fruit snacks
about 30 pieces of ranch flavored goldfish
about 20 grapes
2 homemade muffins topped with pineapple sauce, honey, and a cherry in the center of each one
about 30 peanuts
another serving of the bacon, chicken, and broccoli mac and cheese
2 mini bagels with cream cheese
1 dinner roll with cocojam
about 20 pieces of dibs
1 can of sprite
2 glasses of apple juice
1 pear
a portion of a bacon, provolone cheese dinner roll sandwhich
4 glasses of water
1 glass of merlot
and 2 bowls of marijuana LOL

kris: "there's so much bullshit in our stomach right now"

2009-09-01T19:04:00.001-07:00

GOODBYE RAZOR

2009-08-30T12:27:00.001-07:00

it was just a dream
though i wish it wasn't

2009-08-28T14:49:00.000-07:00

we all must enjoy the little things in life

because it's the little things in life that could bring that
jolt of happiness we are all looking for everyday

there are too many people in the world
who are too ignorant
or too consumed in their own life
that they can't take out the time
or energy to really notice and enjoy all the little things

my friend jorrel told me a story where him and my cousin kris were driving into this neighborhood where
his friends house is, and next to his house were a bunch of emo kids
and as they were rolling up in the car, they were blasting kirby techno music

if you saw that coming down the street and heard that ridiculous music
how could you not laugh?
the kids just glared with uninterested eyes
i mean, just because you classify yourself as an "emo" kid doesn't mean
you're not allowed to find enjoyment in other kinds of music that you don't usually listen to

another example
kris told me a story where he and his friends were in an elevator
and he was dancing the whole way down
and then as he came out he saw this group of a typical caucasian family that consisted of
a father mother daughter and son
the daughter and son were in their late 20s i was guessing
but anyways as he exited the elevator he continued dancing
and then he overheard the son say "awwwwkwarrrrd"
and then the daughter remarks "who just dances like that?"
as said by kris
the real question is
"WHO DOESN'T JUST DANCE LIKE THAT?"

what, just because it doesn't conform to society
and it's not "typical" to see a party going on in an elevator
that you have to believe that what you just saw was "immoral, stupid, or childish"

those people are the ones missing out in life
you have to learn how to just loosen up
accept the world for what it is
and make the best of it
life is too short to be worrying and being angry for no reason everyday

even though it's one of the most cliche lines ever

life is a gift

we can literally do anything we want to

if we were really determined

if i wanted to climb my house for no particular reason

just to be on the roof

i can

if you wanted to start your own business that was devoted in finding the technology to be able to compress a car into a capsule (yes just like in dbz)

you can

don't forget,

you can interpret any situation however you want to

you can either get butt-hurt and take it in the wrongest of ways

or look at it from a positive point of view

cause as long as it doesn't kill you or harm you you in anyway

how could we get mad at it if were still living with all of the possibilities in the world

but... coming back to my original topic
despite all of the hardships you may face
despite all of the bullshit that will be thrown at you

please never forget the little things in life....

2009-08-27T11:53:00.001-07:00

i was just discussing this with my friend jorrel last night:

why are us humans held morally responsible for our actions?
for example,
if we go and fuck up, and then (if you're catholic) we have to now go and "repent" our sins to the lord

but here's the thing..

if god is omniscient (all-knowing),
then therefore he knows what you're going to do tomorrow (good or bad)
and if he knows what we're gonna do tomorrow,
how can we do otherwise?
if we cannot do otherwise, then how can we be held morally responsible for our actions?

something to think about.

2009-08-26T23:09:00.001-07:00

I WIN

2009-08-25T09:25:00.001-07:00

the results will be in tomorrow by 11 am

with all that detox and water i drank

i mustve peed like atleast 10 times by now

so....

i've detoxified myself

now it's time to retoxify myself
LOL

is that even a word?

2009-08-25T07:40:00.000-07:00

here i am
at 7:40 am
trying to drink this whole goddamn 1000 ml ( 1 liter ) bottle of detox
i stopped chugging when it was about 1/8 done LOL
tastes like shit!
and my body cant even hold this much liquid at one time
i feel like i'd throw up if i try to chug more than i can handle
right now its still about 1/2 full still
i was wondering that since i have a small body frame and dont weigh that much
that it isn't necessary to drink the whole bottle
but what if it is necessary?
ahhhh
i have until 9 am to take my drug test
and its now 7:42
i still have to shower and use that special shampoo
which says i have to leave in my hair for 15 minutes
it'll probably take about 10 minutes to reach American Toxicology
but how long would the process be to take my test?
well i'd probably be the only one there
who takes a drug test this early anyways?

wish me luck.

2009-08-23T16:45:00.000-07:00

so far my 2 days working at the cheesecake factory have been interesting
the people are definately more chill there than victorias secret
man... they had me thinking i didnt have to take a drug test
since they already put me through all of the initiation processes
im in the system and everything and ive been training these 2 days
and then today my manager walked up to me and was like "hey! i gotta give you the drug test papers before you leave okay?"
WHY?!!
WHY MUST YOU TRICK ME LIKE THAT?!!!11
youre gonna really teach me all of these things,
let me make all of these bonds with all of your employees,
give me your handy dandy handbook,
and even let me order some free food
and then youre gonna fire me?

WHYYY OH WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

lol

i'll have to find a way around it

i will :)

2009-08-20T13:39:00.000-07:00

apparently a rogue is going around cities like LA posting this picture on walls
it was created by a college student named Firas Alkhateeb, who created the picture using photoshop
he uploaded the picture on flickr, but it was later taken off due to copyright infringements
now some random has taken his work and
has become a wanna-be shephard fairey,
hahaha

2009-08-20T02:34:00.001-07:00

yesterday in the newspaper there was an article about a pack of wild dogs killing an elderly couple in alabama
the husband went out looking for his wife when he noticed her blood soaked shirt under her car
about 20 feet away, he saw her corpse and apparently phoned for help right before being torn to pieces by the dogs.
the article said that residents were aware of wild dogs prowling around the city but they didnt really care enough to do anything
they suspect that the dogs became so numerous that they collaborated together and formed a pack
i didn't really know that wild dogs do still exist in the world
and it surprises me to know that theyre still present here in the U.S.
i thought they'd all be domesticated by now..
from i this article i have learned:
you are more likely to get struck by lightning than by a dog biting you to death
there are about 80 million dogs as pets in the U.S. but
only about 20 deaths each year

mmm, i love welchs fruit snacks

2009-08-19T16:30:00.000-07:00

why is gaining weight so hard for me when it's so easy for obese people to gain 20 pounds a day?
yesterday i ate an almond butter sandwhich using honey wheat toast, it was pretty delicious
and for dinner, my dad grilled this one fish (i forget what it's called), but it was SO SOFT and so TENDER and so JUICY that i almost ate half the fish
have you ever eaten fish with balsamic vinegar?
actually, let me ask you....
have you ever tried balsamic vinegar?
when i was younger, i was very skeptical when i would watch as my brother would literally bathe his fish in this dark, musky liquid
but now i know why!
it's a very unique tasting flavor
adds a nice sweetness and tang to the fish
well, not only was i eating this balsamic touched fish with rice, i was also eating "bagis" (idk if thats how you spell it)
it's groundbeef that has been marinated with lemon and my mom also adds diced onions
and to compliment everything else on my plate, my mom prepared some balasmic marinated cucumbers with red onions, so every bite was like
fish, rice, bagis, cucumbers & red onion
NOM NOM
sounds weird, but...
throughout the years i have noticed my taste buds longing for more different flavors
and as a kid, i remember i'd only have one thing on my plate and only eat one kind of food
like if there were noodles to eat but also beefsteak and rice, id only choose either only eating the noodles or vise versa
but now, i like to explore the various tastes this world has to offer
and i am now motivated to find all that which compliments each other!

LOL
what nonsense.

2009-08-18T19:26:00.000-07:00

Hi friend